This is only my third post and what brought me back you ask? The pondering.... how do we do what we do.... why do we hurt others, why do we lash out, why do we .... well its because...... We all have of a because.
At one time my because was finished with pride because of something "I" felt "I"deserve, or finished with anger because of something that happened to "me", or finished with me and my greatness because I.
When I became, honest, vulnerable, broken, truly authentic and empty when I was at rock bottom. That's when I was ready to change what came after the because. I didn't have the tools to edit the sentence to include because of love, or compassion. Some one else had to change my because. And he did once I let him. Once I was willing, it was there all along I just had to see it... because HE first loved us....
That was the sentence that slowly changed mine and now..... every because ends with him.... because of Jesus, because of his love, because of his word, because I want to obey, because I want to honor him. Because he first loved us .....
I see the because in the people I know and I am so blessed by it...
We adopted 6 children because he asked us to take of the orphans....
We made minstry our life because he asks us to make disciples of all nations....
I going to take a pay cut to keep this ministry in budget because I want the children to know about him .....
I will mentor you and your wife to help you through this rough patch because he wants families to stay together......
I will sell my home and all I have to bring your word to people in another country because he wants all people to know about his love......
I am prayerful and thankful that I know my because ......
I am prayerful that everyone I encounter will know mine too......
I am prayerful that maybe my because will become yours......
Because he first loves us........
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Time Change . . .
So last sunday was Spring Ahead, in another words we changed the time on our clocks to one hour ahead. It seems like such a simple thing to do. It only takes 10 seconds and most cell phones and computers will do it for you. There it's done time changed no sweat.
Really? This week not once have I heard the praises of this change. Many people have commented about the negative effects. "I am so tired." "My kids schedule is totally mixed up." "I don't know why they can't just leave it the same." "Maybe they could just split the difference by 30 minutes."
So the whole thing has me thinking. Thinking about change and thinking about the changes that life brings, the ones bigger than a 1 hour clock change. Thinking about the changes that we choose and those thrust upon us.
This week I see the brokenness that change brings in us simple creatures..... exhaustion, worry, anticipation, frustration, fear, and some many emotions. Emotions of the hands held tightly shut white knuckled and sore from holding on, with aching for relief. Many days my hands have ached for relief over the past few years but I just kept holding on. Lists or pros and cons, debates, planning, and prayers no pleading even begging and my still aching hands, that led to aching arms, aching shoulders, aching head, and aching heart.
What brings the relief to the heart, the head, the shoulders, the arms, the hands.....release of the hands and the simple act of turning them over and upward toward the heaven. Turning your eyes too and looking for the light of the son. He had to open his hands too. Opened them to be nailed to the cross, turned his eyes to the light in heaven and pleaded and then gave the pain to the one who can truly heal the aching heart. And what happened from those open hands on the cross and eyes on heaven.... A perfect plan....the open hands led to the perfect plan.
So today I am not pleading or begging just asking that he help me keep my hands turned open and eyes turned upward ready to receive his perfect plan and the changes that might bring.
"When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer." Psalm 94:19
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Really? This week not once have I heard the praises of this change. Many people have commented about the negative effects. "I am so tired." "My kids schedule is totally mixed up." "I don't know why they can't just leave it the same." "Maybe they could just split the difference by 30 minutes."
So the whole thing has me thinking. Thinking about change and thinking about the changes that life brings, the ones bigger than a 1 hour clock change. Thinking about the changes that we choose and those thrust upon us.
This week I see the brokenness that change brings in us simple creatures..... exhaustion, worry, anticipation, frustration, fear, and some many emotions. Emotions of the hands held tightly shut white knuckled and sore from holding on, with aching for relief. Many days my hands have ached for relief over the past few years but I just kept holding on. Lists or pros and cons, debates, planning, and prayers no pleading even begging and my still aching hands, that led to aching arms, aching shoulders, aching head, and aching heart.
What brings the relief to the heart, the head, the shoulders, the arms, the hands.....release of the hands and the simple act of turning them over and upward toward the heaven. Turning your eyes too and looking for the light of the son. He had to open his hands too. Opened them to be nailed to the cross, turned his eyes to the light in heaven and pleaded and then gave the pain to the one who can truly heal the aching heart. And what happened from those open hands on the cross and eyes on heaven.... A perfect plan....the open hands led to the perfect plan.
So today I am not pleading or begging just asking that he help me keep my hands turned open and eyes turned upward ready to receive his perfect plan and the changes that might bring.
"When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer." Psalm 94:19
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Maiden Voyage
So this is my Maiden Voyage, blogging that is.
Who am I and why would I blog. First, I am a wife of 13 years, and mother to 4 children. The first of my 4 came to me through my marriage this handsome hardworking young man is a freshman in college. Doing a great job and learning what life is about on his own terms. My second child came the old fashion way.... this 9 year old gentleman is kind, thoughful and addicted to legos with a heart for the Lord. My third is a loving snuggly dark haired beauty. She is smart, but simple and remarkably sweet. My fourth child is a blond bombshell the energetic, fiery stubborn never going to get taken advantage of kind of bombshell. I am praying already for her future husband.
Why is my blog titled Tides of Blessing.... well that's how I see life as of late. Each day has its blessings they roll in and roll out some times they are enormous and take your breath away and sometimes they are quiet and feel like the water rippling over your toes. This blog will serve for me as a place to count those blessings.
My blessings - First -The Heavenly Father, Jesus my Savior, and the Holy Spirit my counselor. Oh the light that he has brought to this dark life!
My husband of 13 years - a provider, a friend a loving father and growing man of God.
Then ofcourse my 4 rewards from heaven mentioned above.
So I begin with number 7 - work that I love where I can spend my days with the bombshell, and share the love of God with the youngest of hearts.
#8 - A home that is warm.
#9 - Cuddles on the couch... I hope they never grow out of wanting to do that.
#10 - Twinkling white Christmas lights still hanging in the window.
#11 - February vacation and snow!
So there it is he beginning of my blessings record....
Who am I and why would I blog. First, I am a wife of 13 years, and mother to 4 children. The first of my 4 came to me through my marriage this handsome hardworking young man is a freshman in college. Doing a great job and learning what life is about on his own terms. My second child came the old fashion way.... this 9 year old gentleman is kind, thoughful and addicted to legos with a heart for the Lord. My third is a loving snuggly dark haired beauty. She is smart, but simple and remarkably sweet. My fourth child is a blond bombshell the energetic, fiery stubborn never going to get taken advantage of kind of bombshell. I am praying already for her future husband.
Why is my blog titled Tides of Blessing.... well that's how I see life as of late. Each day has its blessings they roll in and roll out some times they are enormous and take your breath away and sometimes they are quiet and feel like the water rippling over your toes. This blog will serve for me as a place to count those blessings.
My blessings - First -The Heavenly Father, Jesus my Savior, and the Holy Spirit my counselor. Oh the light that he has brought to this dark life!
My husband of 13 years - a provider, a friend a loving father and growing man of God.
Then ofcourse my 4 rewards from heaven mentioned above.
So I begin with number 7 - work that I love where I can spend my days with the bombshell, and share the love of God with the youngest of hearts.
#8 - A home that is warm.
#9 - Cuddles on the couch... I hope they never grow out of wanting to do that.
#10 - Twinkling white Christmas lights still hanging in the window.
#11 - February vacation and snow!
So there it is he beginning of my blessings record....
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